100 Reasons Why I’m Not A Cowgirl – August 15
I have a lot of topics to cover in this journal entry, so I’ll just dive right in.
TIME FOR A LIST!
Good things about having broke legs:
There are advantages and disadvantages to every situation so today I thought I’d share with you the plus side of having two broke legs.
1. When the kids ask if I will get something for them that they are perfectly capable of getting themselves “I’m sorry honey, but both my legs are broke, you’re gonna have to do that.”
Scenes from August 14th…
Yesterday just about got the best of me. You see, I didn’t realize until this accident how often I go outside during the day. Not for very long periods of time or anything, but several times throughout the day I step away from my computer and walk out onto the back porch to look up at the trees and sky and just breathe a bit. It is a way of clearing my head in one sense, but mostly, it is to remind me of how small I am in comparison to it all.
Inside our houses, inside our offices, our problems and the responsibilities of our lives become skewed in proportion.They grow and expand and we forget that we are all just children when it comes to this world and we get to feeling as if we are responsible for the whole kingdom.
When we go outside and stand beneath the massive sky and trees, looking up at Heaven and surrounded by God, everything comes back in perspective.
The world slows down, problems shrink and we can see how very small we are in contrast to it all – and remember how very much God loves us in the midst of it all.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
I can still go to God, of course, I just have a habit of getting out of my creation and into His creation several times a day when I do that.
But I can’t do that right now. I can’t get outside on my own because each door has a deep drop that my wheelchair can’t navigate without pitching me out of it and I have the foresight to see that would not be a good situation.
So yesterday, the lack of sunshine began to get to me.
And make me itch.
And make the walls feel as if they were closing in like that really weird scene in that one Star Wars movie my brother made me watch back when I was young enough that I felt compelled to do whatever he told me to. You know that trash compactor one with that Luke guy and the big hairy guy who yelled all the time like a grumpy man first thing in the morning? Yeah, that one. If you didn’t see it, you’re probably fine. No worries.
So when my son got home from school, I had him put a chair out on the back deck and I wheeled my chair into the doorway and stretched my legs out to rest them on the chair – outside.
This is what that looked like. Ignore the messy deck. I would clean it right now but my legs are broke.
(Mentally add that as #6 to the list above : Can excuse mess in any photo taken in or around home.)
The rest of me couldn’t go but I sat there in that doorway and breathed in the warm air and looked up at that beautiful sky,framed perfectly by my green trees and I absolutely reveled in it. It was heaven.
Check out my view…
See why this is a retreat for me? Isn’t it beautiful?
After sitting out there for a bit, I texted my husband and told him I was going stir crazy.
He told me last week that he knew it would get the best of me and he said anytime I needed to get out of the house to just let him know and he’d make it happen.
So when he came home, we had a delicious supper sent by a friend and then we headed to Wal-Mart.
*Note, I always get comments from the folks who have ill feelings towards Wal-Mart whenever I mention them and I get that, I understand your personal conviction and I am a big supporter of personal convictions. But I respectfully ask you to keep them personal right now. Thanks ~winks~
He wheeled me through the grocery aisle as I held one of those blue baskets on my lap and filled it with fruit treats for the kids, a roast for this weekend, potatoes to go with the roast, and blueberries for me. I then added lipstick and a big bottle of Jergens Original Scent lotion (Do you remember that wonderful smell?).
By the time we checked out it was after 7:00 at night! WOOHOO! It felt wonderful to have the fresh air and the car ride was heavenly. I really can’t tell you enough how much I enjoy the freedom of riding in a car right now and I can hardly wait to be able to drive my car again. I think driving is what I miss the most, really.
Anyway, here is a photo of me and Ricky as he wheeled me back to the car…
and here is a photo of my loot that I purchased just for myself on my little outing. Exciting life, huh?
And you know what? Today I am going to attempt to eat every blessed one of those little blueberries all by myself. It’s good to have goals…
Well folks, that is all for today. As usual, I find my blessings are coming in by the truckload and at this point I can honestly say that this is becoming one of the richest experiences of my life.
A strange thing happens when you look for the good in a situation…. you find it.
My cup overflows with joy and that joy was not put there by man.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. ~Romans 8:28